Transgender encounters GOD, and is restored

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I invited God to come and in prayer God came. I could see him; the Lord was dressed in white. He approached me with his arms stretched out and a generous smile on his face. I saw myself as a baby. The Lord scooped me up and said, “You are safe with me forever.” Tears ran down my cheeks and then a smile came; I was now restored. (from page 116 of my book A Transgender's Faith)

What I've learned since that experience in prayer is

  • There is no female brain in the wrong male body
  • Current studies do not support the transsexual condition
  • Nor do the current studies support the effectiveness of transition as treatment.

When I realized 8 years after surgery that the surgeon’s knife had no power to change my gender, filled with shame and pain, I turned to the Lord singing—

Walt & Darrell

I'm trading my sorrows

I'm trading my shame
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord
I'm trading my sickness
I'm trading my pain
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

(That's me and Darrell, author of this song, in the picture.)

It’s foolishness–allowing and even demanding that a surgeon mutilate your body.
It’s shameful and painful. And not effective. Surgery cannot correct psychological sickness. 

In my view, the gender change pushers intentionally refuse to warn would-be transgenders about the 50-50 chance of disaster. Studies show that a staggering 30% of transgenders will commit suicide. 

The gender pushers say that transgenders are born that way but a 2011 study from Sweden suggests they are not.  In this study, researchers Savic & Arver of Sweden report that the present data do not support the notion that brains of MtF-TR are feminized. (See the abstract of the study below.)

My Conclusion

My conclusion is very simple—something is very wrong with one or more of the following:

  1. Many transgenders have co-existing disorders that are not recognized and treated. The Harry Benjamin Standards of Care “one size fits all” approach is incorrect.
  2. Too many therapists have blind spots in considering alternative disorders or treatments, and patient suicide results.
  3. The process of changing genders with hormone therapy and/or surgery is not an easy one. Many patients are just not prepared for the difficulties they will face.


Gender dysphoria is suggested to be a consequence of sex atypical cerebral differentiation. We tested this hypothesis in a magnetic resonance study of voxel-based morphometry and structural volumetry in 48 heterosexual men (HeM) and women (HeW) and 24 gynephillic male to female transsexuals (MtF-TR). Specific interest was paid to gray matter (GM) and white matter (WM) fraction, hemispheric asymmetry, and volumes of the hippocampus, thalamus, caudate, and putamen. Like HeM, MtF-TR displayed larger GM volumes than HeW in the cerebellum and lingual gyrus and smaller GM and WM volumes in the precentral gyrus. Both male groups had smaller hippocampal volumes than HeW. As in HeM, but not HeW, the right cerebral hemisphere and thalamus volume was in MtF-TR lager than the left. None of these measures differed between HeM and MtF-TR. MtF-TR displayed also singular features and differed from both control groups by having reduced thalamus and putamen volumes and elevated GM volumes in the right insular and inferior frontal cortex and an area covering the right angular gyrus.The present data do not support the notion that brains of MtF-TR are feminized. The observed changes in MtF-TR bring attention to the networks inferred in processing of body perception.

Cereb Cortex. 2011 Nov;21(11):2525-33. Epub 2011 Apr 5, Sex dimorphism of the brain in male-to-female transsexuals., Savic I, Arver S.